Monday, December 31, 2007

HEY ALL....its 23 mins to the new year...and i'm currently chatting with my lucky star for the countdown...rather cool...haha...although i do not get to experience the fireworks up close, i can at least see it from my home...hope the ones from marina are high fireworks...so that i can video them...well...what are my new year resolutions?? i'll tell u...to do well in my studies...thats a first...next is to work hard for O levels...so that i can meet my parents' expectations...i also hope to make more friends...good ones...duh...received nice presents for christmas...thanks for them people...last few minutes...live it...cos 07' has been truely a WONDERFUL YEAR...i love it...haha...cheers and HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!...

Tuesday, December 18, 2007

Hey people...i'm so in a holiday mood right now...so...don't mind...even the song...the more modern version of 'the 12 days of christmas' one of my favourite christmas song...by Relient K...my other favourite is 'all i want for christmas'...by mariah carey...totally rockz...haha

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hope this tree enlightens our spirits this festive season...and it serves as my christmas tree at home as i don't even have one...haha...some people are gonna get presents...from me that is...hehe...well i hope i can find one suitable for each and everyone of those whom i intend to give it to...i seriously dunno what else to say...i'm just too...un-moody...haha...may the doves be with you...cheers...

Tuesday, December 11, 2007

Now on to serious business...the meeting...well it took place at my aunt's house to not let my grandparents hear what the relatives had to say...now i cannot have my own say of my story...and my maid leaked info to me that if we won, she would stay and my grandma would live at the old folks' home...if not, my maid would have to leave and my grandma stay...wierd...after the meeting my mm talked to my maid and again she told me...the result...my bloody relatives can't bare to see my grandma in the old folks' home...but then again, they do not want my maid to leave so that she can take care of my grandama...this is so obvious that they are simply LAZY to even take responsibility into taking care of her...also, they just do not want that burden to be laid onto themelves...total idiots...even i alone can see tell their reason for doing so even without attending the meeting...bloody ass holes...all 4 families of them...now even my own wishes for this christmas will be extinguised just because of them...also, my mom has to work twice as hard to support this family...to think that they have 2 people working to support a family that just sits after they eat and watch the show happen...they are so wrong...i can have what i want, but is just that we do not have enough cash to get it...i cannot imagine how my mom can even take the time to call home to ask how those 2 at home are...she is the greatest i have ever had...my mom cares a lot about my grandparents...just that one or both of them don't appreciate what she has done...for 16 whole years...it just so makes my mad by thinking about this...but seriously, i only can do my best...what else can i do??...i cannot even have my say...my christmas present [so-called] can only be either one from the list...and i know it as my mom can only afford to pay for 1...but my greatest of them all...is that my family can live the life that we used to have before all these happened...the one with happiness, joy, peace, laughter...i don't even have the mood to end off with cheers anymore...haiz...

Ahahaha...the outing was great...we met up at kallang at 11.30 but murray was late...zzz...but not that late...back to the story...alvin, jia ling, murray, jia man, xian da and i...we went...firstly walked to kallang leisure park...rather far though...it was beside the national stadium...well, it drizzled on our way there...but we reached there before it rainned heavily...met mrs. yusof there...pleasant surprise...with her family of course...and the sportslink there...wow...up to 80% discount on the nike products...well everything there was nike...had lunch...i had ice kachang...not hungry...and then the main event...ie skating...2 jolly hours...nicer skates...more comfortable...i got the hang of it again in around 1/2 hour...haha...skated finish and went arcade...surprised to see jolene...haha...she lives there so its obvious...i played the para para thing and marked the first high score...and another time with another higher score...haha...but another girl came and played and of course thrashed my score...zzz...we explored the place...rather cool...very teen oriented...sort of...and for dinner we went to da chang jin to eat...wow...3 hours of it...and of course our playful jia man cooked food after dipping into soup...ginseng soup...get it?...never mnd if u don't...and then it was 9pm...alvin and xian da had to lave so they went to kallang station...while the rest of us walked to lavender...chatting on the way of course...it was drizzling a bit...with me as the 'tour-guide' again..a good 45 mins walk...jia man's dad picked her up at lavender...and murray, jia ling and i took the train...mom asked me to take a taxi home but i took the train instead...we accompanied murray to hougang station...by then it was around 10.20-10.30...we looked at the bus schedule board thing...and since me and jia ling had 3 buses to take back, we had to...we decided on 132...but 165 was beside 132 so we took the chance...waited...15 mins later our dear 132 came and went home...reached at 11pm...scary...nearly got scolding but did not...

Friday, December 7, 2007

This is simply an outrage...how can this matter be this way...my family...my only source of warmth...well don't get the wrong idea...i know what i am typing...my house has turned from warm to piping hot hell...how can my bloody relatives do this...my dad's side...they suck...not all of them...out of 6 children...only 2 bother to look after my grandma...the others just sit and have high tea everyday...the one taking the full weight will be my dad and mom...dad's calling for another 'family' meeting with his siblings and in-laws...ya like whatev...like they would bother to listen to my dad...to think that i give no damned about this...well you're wrong...totally...come on...i cannt just sit there while my relatives give comments which only my parents are going to take action about...i have a piece of my own story to tell them...but my dad just won't let me say it...i know he meant me well but a 15 year old teenager is also a HUMAN BEING...not some monster like my uncaring relatives...if i am a human then i should deserve a right to have my say too...i have my OWN story to say...15 years i've been living with my grandma...so does my mom...and none of these 15 years has my grandma ever liked my mom...till now i can even tell she does not really like my mother despite all that she has done for her...my relatives do not even deserve a right to call my grandme their mother...shame on them for 15 whole years...especially my 2nd aunt...what the -toot- she is...what a -toot-...just cannot stand her...the meeting is just going to be like last time's...not all came...but at least some came...i don't know their reason for being here...be it they just want to come to eat or wad...they came here like it was chinese new year...but guess wad...TOO BAD...chinese new year is over...come lah...eat...and wad the next meeting is going to be like their christmas celebration...ya right...the previous meeting was more like them coming to eat than discuss...this sunday...if what they say, they did not do...they can dun even think about coming to visit my grandma for chinese new year...come on grandma...you have 4 families behind you...and 2 standing in front of you actually facing you and staring right at you...based on majority you win...but you took it too far lady...why must you make things ten folds more difficult for us? i just don't understand...is it that you don't like us or wad...huh?...now you are even trying to drive our best maid back home...great...and wad you expect me to do all the housework?? yes..i have to do them...but how about my exam...is it not important?...i do have to study you know...you expect me to fall behind all my cousins who are oh-so-perfect??...so wad if i have doctors as cousins?...none of them actually bother to see or at most help out with her condition...doctors...ya...brainless ones more likely...come on...only my second aunt is the who 'cares' so much about my exams...always comparing it with her own son...who is the same age as me...-toot- u...ya...and if i did not do as well as him then wad...she's gonna sae oh you could have tried harder or study more??...i dun think so...if she ever tells that to me or if any of those inconsiderate and irresponsible relatives say that, i'm so gonna...[violence, censored for your own good]...yes i am different from my cousins...not as smart as them...not as rich as them as they only fork out a few hundred dollars per wad 4 months?...my family has to fork out more in like 2 months for her medical bills...and to think my cousins reeceived more than i did from an of the relatives...even my mom agrees...muahahaha...believe me...argh...well...on sunday....there wil be another lengthy post like this i guess...cheers to my outstanding mom and dad...love them lots...

Tuesday, December 4, 2007

Why must things be this way? Its just so darn unfair...come to think of it, i feel that i am indeed useless...some of my grades have dropped to rock bottom...well, not that far....but just to simply put it...they suck...what are friends for....in school yes i have got a very 'dependable' friend...but is he what i expect him to be? NO!!...so what if his grades are much better than mine...so what if he keeps saying that i'm better than he is...all crap!...and his crap does not even make me feel any better anyways...it just brings me down drastically...i'd wish that he stop all these...its just so frustrating...my dreams...my hopes...my aspirations...will they just so easily be flushed down the toilet?...i guess so...i dream big...but i guess that it is still a bit too big...and unaccomplishable for me...with my lousy results, how am i supposed to get there?...what i dream of flies around the world...every few minutes, hours...taking off and landing...soaring high up...will i, myself get to greatest opportunity to get to operate one?...that i guess will all depend on what i'm doing now...i hope to forget everything that he said to and about me before i move on to a new year....a new beginning...by forgetting all, nothing will stop me...not even him...just hope that it will happen though...haiz...cheers

Monday, December 3, 2007

Hey all...today was rather enjoyable...went to T3 with Murray, Jia Ling, Alvin, Zhong Sheng and Miao Chun...well, met murray at T3...and the rest of us met up at AMK station at 12.30...but me and mc and her sis went to watch 'Enchanted' that morning...nice show...back to the story...we went there...nice...and i did not expect the world's longest indoor bridge to be above our heads when we step out from Changi Airport station...incredible...we went on the $3 guided tour...by which we got to learn more about the terminal and other terminals...some of which we even did not think of or even notice...then we went terminal hopping...from one to another...went T1 to eat...and ZS left his bag when we arrived at T2 so he and alvin went to get it...good thing it was stil there...and we went T2 to get to the budget terminal by shuttle bus...which was sort of lame...cos the budget terminal is really damned budget...very simple layout...both departure hall and arrival hall....both very simple and small...on the way back home, we were thinking how could we possibly spent so much time at the Airport...we expected it to be boring and all but then in the end we went till 6+...incredible...power sia....haha...but it was very educational...it also reminds us to take a step back to look at things and not take them for granted too...

^T3...more eco-friendly...the main ceiling up there...


^The propeller on display...which also looks like an orchid though


^Doesn't this bring back memories?...T1


^The difference between T3 and T2...


^On the shuttle bus waiting for it go get going back to T2

Saturday, December 1, 2007

Here, today, i would like to express gratitude to my maternal grandmother...she is the best there is...she knows what i like to eat...mostly pork...and she cooks them for me to eat...even if it means my mom bringing it back to s'pore...yummy...she made some keropok yesterday and it was delicious...her home-made ones...her special 3 in 1...nice...i wonder how she does it...i guess she has a flare for cooking...cos her food always tastes good...she could even do up a cook book of her own recepies...but i guess some good things remain best remembered in ones head...she knows me well to cook my favourite food and have me eat it when i go to johore...gonna miss that one day...well...she is the best of the best in my entire family...but not as best as my parents of course...still, the food she cooks have stained my heart and i'll never forget how they taste...thanks grandma...cheers