Monday, March 31, 2008


My Dearest Friend was thinking very negatively today...and well, that was wad i used to be last time...until we had a personality switch..TOTALLY..lets just say things aren't going that well for him currently...many things are happening and it has affected him one way or another...talking to him today would not be an option to me as his mood will continue till he wakes up the next morning...it pains me to see him like this..so emo, so depressed, so troubled...i cant even console him for even a bit no matter how much i try..i myself have problems..but all i could do is put on a mask everyday and smile..i'm furious at my good-for-nothing relatives who grumble at the thought of giving money to my grandparents whom my mom has painfully taken care of for 16 years..and them??...well add up the times they come visit from since my mom married my dad, i doubt it will not even add up to a year...individually...i am greatful towards my youngest uncle..he is the only one i choose to listen to and take advises from as they are useful..he is the ONLY one apart from my mom and dad who believes my maid instead of my nonsensical-depressed-watch too much drama grandmother...i believe her thoughts and suspicions of my maid all comes from the tv show every weekday in the afternoon..come to think of it, it could be true..some of my aunts think they have problems ''too hard to handle'' ya right..talk abount money and they open their eyes so big...other than that, THEY either like to compare me with their son same aged as me or give sarcastic remarks..cant stand them..MY personal life muz KPO..if they KPO my life, then no need to sae about my grandma's..just read and infer from wad i typed..back to my friend..i hope he can have one day of warming sunshine..better yet everyday..cheers sean..

for the knight Monday, March 31, 2008


Monday, March 17, 2008


Been rather long since i posted something up...broke my own official record of reaching home after spending time with a friend...time: 12.22am, Sunday...the concert at Victoria Concert Hall was interesting...the music they played don't sound like they actually sat there to play...it is almost as if it was heard directly from a radio broadcast...i was rather amazed by the violinists...the violins are small and simple, but when played produces sounds that arouse different emotions according to how it is being played...going with sean's friends are not TOO bad...he said i had ''mo qi'' with him cos i like bonded very fast and we still could talk quite a lot...his firend is called nicholas tan...the thing about him is that there is this bright aura around him that i personally feel is good cos it makes people around him feel enjoyable just talking to him...which was how i felt when i talked to him...i find his friends rather interesting although the way he said it was that they are so boring...i hope to know him even more and make another friend...hehe...as much as i like making new friends, i would like to find my old one...cedric wing...during primary school...we were very close and did most things together...i enjoyed those times...but sad news came...he transfered school...and i lost contact ever since...all i've got is his home number...but whether he has changed it or not, i do not know...but there is definitely one thing different...he would have changed...for the better or for the worse i also do not know...hope to see him though...cheers

for the knight Monday, March 17, 2008


Friday, March 7, 2008


These few days have been up and down for me...each day brings one different emotion...frustration, happiness, sadness, anger, stress...i still can't get over the fact that i literally suck at finding MY own lost things...instead i do better at finding other people's things...on the other hand mine just disappears into another dimension...sickening...argh...despite this, i still smile everyday, things like getting good grades for tests just make me delighted...at least i feel that there is a ray of hope for my grades and i know that i can do well...i'm stressed everyday...so thats very commom...i feel that i've been crapping...but this is my main motive for posting...''its like having the original product and then suddenly i'm given the exact same thing but its in a sense fake or 'pirated', however the function of the product is still there''...i have seen the light now...its bright and soothing...now i can finally free that weight inside...let it sink into the depths of the abyss...its my time to have a rest and relax...

for the knight Friday, March 07, 2008





You Are 54% Angry
Generally, you are not an angry person.
But you're easily frustrated and enraged. You have one heck of a temper.
And because of your anger, you tend to feel resentful and even spiteful.
You already know how to quell your anger. You just need to do it more often.
http://www.blogthings.com/howangryareyouquiz/">How Angry Are You?


for the knight Friday, March 07, 2008


Monday, March 3, 2008


Hey...finally something for me to update on...well, it could be kinda lame but...you know...as to fulfill someone's ''wishes'' i shall post today...i am SO DAMNED FRUSTRATED with myself...firstly being very very very very forgetful and so darn SSTM...and lastly being DUMB...i lost like 2 things in like a week...first was pokemon pearl version...i searched high and low for it...but to no avail...i even interogated my sister but her answers don't convince me though..so, after bloodily asking her i started from home, asked till my aunt's house, till 3 different cars, to changi airport and guess wad...i end up back in square one...aka HOME...its so pointless...if i were to ask anymore, i think she'll not even be bothered to answer...now i only can live in guilt until i find it...i wish there was a psychic to help me, or at least a magician...too bad i'm neither one of the two, nor have the kind of money to hire one...second and lastly,my calculator...izzit me or am i getting struck with sheer dumb luck...just one pathetic day before my physics test and i can't find it...argh...furthermore, i can't even remember if i have brought it along for the camp from 27 - 29 feburary...blame it on my SSTM...not as if i want it...possibilities: cimema, on bus to NAP, on bus from NAP...these are the only times where my bag was on its horizontal, making my calculator vulnerable to falling out...i felt that the cinema was most suspicious cos if i dropped it on de bus, it would make a loud drop sound...but since cinema is carpeted flooring, it most prob wun be so obvious that i dropped it...ok...i just went and bought the exact same one...BUT THE PROBLEM IS...i feel no chemistry with it...it seems like another totally different calculator...the buttons are like much harder to press and is like you got to really press it down then de number will come up...unlike my old one, just press....no need to hard den de number go up ler...and i feel de new calculator a bit retarded sia...like some things so slow or press de button already de number never appear...izzit dumb or dumb...holding it is like...damned different la...dun blame me for being over-affectionate but...ya...i used the calculator for such a long time...giving me a new one is like asking me to adapt to a new girlfriend that i'm forced to be with...kapeesh??...but, if things in this world were so easy to find, there will not even be this word called ''misplace'' or ''lost'' in the dictionary...if things are so super damned easy to find, the world would be rotating from east to west instead of west to east...well, since i misplace stuff so easily, i really hope the east to west thing really happens...in that way, i wun be so darn ''attatched'' to my objects to the point that when i lose it i go around grumbling...

for the knight Monday, March 03, 2008