Monday, April 21, 2008


In this post, i've got a few things to say...first regarding the CIP activity on saturday at bedok reservoir...well, arriving there at least 3-4 hours before the even started was one thing, having to wait and got absolutely nothing to do during that wait is another...well, a couple of us [douglas, murray, joel, YS, jolene, daphne, alvin, jia ling and miao chun and I] went for a walk around the reservoir...a jolly 45++ minutes of talking, laughing and picture taking...exciting too...also, we were surprised to see Hidam from sec3 camp...ok..now for the event...standing along a path with damn little amount of people walking through made the job assigned to our class BORING...but we got to see the president anyways...overall it was fun...in a sense...secondly, things have not been looking up for me...results plumeting, head spinning, emotions running wildly...all confused and lost...ever since kaka[my maid] left, there's this void inside my heart...something is missing...i poured my heart out 4 times ever since she stepped through the customs at the airport...two on friday, one on saturday, one today...i certainly don't feel that it will just stop here...i even felt like killing myself...i'm like hit with many things at one go...day 1 since she left was managable, day 2 got a bit bad..day 3 aka today was...we had to cater food from outside and its kind of not my type and i don't think i will have a filling dinner...even if we are gonna hire a temporary maid, i am a bit worried as she would iron some of my trousers/shorts which cannot be ironed...not that i don't trust her...its just this wierd feeling inside, thats all...i'm definitely not seeing the light in my results...especially a math and chemistry...i find myself not being able to concentrate and have difficulties doing so...i dunno why but, i just do...i am struggling to survive...

for the knight Monday, April 21, 2008