Saturday, August 2, 2008


Waking up each day, i ask myself...have i done anything to improve my studies?...any revisions?..even without telling u i guess most of u would most probably have guessed what my answer would be...simply because, that motivation or the 'umph' is not there...everything has been going downwards these days...although there were indeed some good times here and there...that mood isn't there...furthermore, things happen for a reason and they have already taken place...i know people have been 'nagging' at me to revise now...problem is, u cannot leave me alone for a long period of time and hope that i would actually start doing something useful within that period...i'll gradually drift away from the table and be seen doing something else instead...adding on, i know it seems as if i've got very good friends but that is just what u see without understanding the current situation to the full extent...the truth is, what i am feeling now is more of solitude than being accompanied...its like i'm being cursed or something...if that is so then so it shall be...one last thing before i end off, i would like to say this to a particular someone who should know that i am actually refering to himself/herself: ''Stop caring about me anymore! Why should u care about how i am these few days...we aren't related anymore...i don't recognise u anymore...u owe me nothing and neither do i...so STOP!...u can try all u want but it is already way too late to repair the damage done to the shattered glass...even so, there would still be scars left on it and it will never be the same as before...so save ur effort...please''


[it makes me bleed even more whenever i see u...]

for the knight Saturday, August 02, 2008